Lesson learned

1. 不要把自己的事情掏心掏肺地告诉别人, 你知不知道 , 有些人 , 面前心连心 , 背后动脑筋。
2. 需要人家陪的时候才发现靠自己实际些

You know what I've learned? 

I was crying whole night 

Thinking why people treated me like that 

Why I treated people with true heart but end up like this 

Then I realized 

Maybe it is better to rely myself 

That's told by my sister 

What's the point you tell everyone how you felt? 

I mean they don't really understand you 

Worst, they felt that you are irritating 

No matter what you ever did to them 

So what? 

I used to be proud that I have close friends 

Friends that understand me 

That won't ever betray me 

That will ever be with me 

But after yesterday 

I just realize 

The only person that will not betray me 

Is ME 

He asked me, "where are your friends that you claimed the best and understand you? That claimed will be there for you no matter what"
Jack?
Wee Pang?
Justin?
She Rene?
Is they with you?
Are they being supportive?
The only answer I gave is, "Everyone is fed up with me"
And all he went to me and said, "Face the fact and wake up"

She felt that I deserve all these pain 

I mean she felt that I deserve it 

But seriously, am I? 

James was right 

Try get one boyfriend that exact the same pattern 

Can you even waited for 3 years 

I don't think she can stand for 3 months 

So don't ever try to be in someone's hat when you don't understand 

You yourself told me it's not worth 

You yourself ask me to let go and make clean break 

But at the end 

You said it's my fault 

I deserve it 

WOW, that's being very supportive 

He felt that I'm irritating in posting stuff in Facebook 

It's a free country 

I can post whatever I like 

I mean I always post stuff 

NO matter happy or not 

If you really don't want to see it 

Ignore it 

But whatever

I just don't want to care

I need to learn to be Scorpio 

Heartless and Logic 

That's what Juin How told me 

I guess I really want the old me back 

ME before I knew Jack 

I want to be strong and independent 

To be a girl that will live without guys 

I will make my own history 

Yes, I am unwanted 

Yes, I am abandoned

That's my history 

I am priceless 

So what? 

So be it 

I never wanted by anybody 

Not even my parents

I mean not they don't want me 

They love my sister more 

And my ex, he choose gym and football over me 

Ironic stuff is my sister ask me to tell him that he can marry gym as his wife 

But that's him 

Yet, he claimed that it was me who make him don't want to accompany me 

It was me who cause everything 

Well, I don't mind if that's my fault 

I can't change history 

He chosen gym over me 

WP chosen other girl over me 

My parents chosen my sister over me 

So what so surprise of being unwanted? 

This is my life 

So I am used with it 

No matter what Jack said me about how I'm unwanted 

I don't care 

This is me 

So, lesson learned 

And I wanted to say 

"I'm unwanted, SO WHAT?"